Monday again! Vicky
and Karen have been wondering if something is wrong with me . I've told them
that everything is fine and nothing is wrong of course you and I know it's not
true. I think is that it still hurts me that Sam is no longer with me. I've been
trying to distract with myself with school, it works but for a moment; then I
try hanging out with Vicky and Karen afterschool but no use. I only thing that
gets my mind out of Sam is Marco. I've been thinking in trying to talk to Marco
again but I'm afraid of his rejection again. Rejection feels awful. I've seen
Marco around with his friends, when he looks at me; he just grins at me and
leaves. I sometimes I think that he's not mad at me anymore. I think he's been dating someone else, I
think that is why he's been in a good mood. Well I'm happy if he's happy. Like
I said before I think I need time for myself. I hope this feeling goes away, I
want to be happy and live life how it suppose to be.
Sam I miss you. Help
me please. R.I.P Samuel Gonzalez
